I know that sounds weird and sounds like it defeats the entire purpose of writing this all down but hear me out. Here's the thing: I'm not terribly good at doing what I'm told. Not in a scary BA kind of way( wish!) but in a I was going to do that but now I'm not just because you told me to kind of way. For example when I was about 8 I took piano lessons from my great-aunt who is just about the sweetest lady you will ever meet. And I hated it. Not because I didn't like playing piano but because I totally resented whenever she corrected me or told me to do something. Which is basically what teaching is. She was just doing her job. So as you can imagine the whole learning the piano thing didn't last very long.
Anyway the point of this long winded story is I hate being told what to do or being made to do something, even things I don't even mind doing. Does that make sense? So as you can imagine resolution don't last very long with me. Which is dumb because esentially I'm telling myself what to do. But every year I make resolutions and don't do anything about them because I feel like I'm being forced into them. So this year I'm not making any.
However here's what I am going to do. I'm going to try to be a happier person. I don't mean that I have a hard life and I'm so sad or anything. I just mean that I'm going to try to be more optimistic. I can be a real Eyore sometimes (oh bother no point in trying, I didn't think it would work anyway) I'm going to try to avoid that. I've come to the conclusion that it's better to look on the bright side, to concentrate on what you have not what you don't and not to compaire yourself with others. If you wake up and tell yourself it's going to be a good day, there is a better chance that it WILL be a good day. This isn't set in stone, everyone has crappy days where you want to eat chocolate and drink tea and stay in bed. But it sure helps.
So that's what I'm going to do this year. Wake up everyday and remind myself of all the reasons I have to be happy. But don't get me wrong, that's not a resolution!:-p
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